Starting something new is probably the hardest thing you can do. When you are a kid, no one ever warns you about change. How daunting it can be and how much it makes you second guess everything. They always say; change is good. But what if its not?
I don’t care what anyone says. Change is scary. Even the prospect of change is terrifying. Everything gets thrown into orbit, and you don’t know if or when, or how it will stop. You just have to close your eyes and pray for the best.
The changes that you make for yourself, the ones that you plan; these changes scare me the most. With unplanned changes, at least you don’t know they’re going to happen. They just catch you off guard and by the time you realise what has happened, there’s not much you can do to stop it. Planned changes however, they are dangerous. You have time to think and re think. It gives you time to second guess yourself. But worse of all, it gives you time to think about every single little thing that could go wrong. Your brain takes this time and plays scenarios in your head about how bad this change could be for you. It’s enough to drive anyone into a panic attack.*
But at the end of the day, change is inevitable. At one point or another in your lifetime, you will need to change something. You just need to prepare yourself to deal with it, in whatever way you know how. Just don’t run away from it.
They say that everything you want is on the other side of fear. Use that fear to propel you into the unknown. Because the only thing more terrifying than change, is the question – What if?
*If possible, make sure this panic attack doesn’t happen while driving – I speak from experience.